I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness; I will sing the praises of the name of the LORD Most High.
I have to admit. I have been pretty awesome to live with lately.
And by awesome ... I mean: A.W.E.S.O.M.E.
I don't know why I get like this. I guess it is just a time for reflection. It hasn't been long that I have been this way. Just a few days. And it isn't even the whole day that I am like this, just spurts of the day. And it is really only to Mike. And I am pretty sure it feels like to him ... it has been DAYS of complaining. But, it really hasn't been, has it?
I was folding like 5 loads of laundry today, after a great workout ... and I was starving. So, everything was starting off sour. I was having a pout fest because Kynslee was napping and I just knew by the time I was done putting the enormous amounts of laundry away, she would wake up. In my head I was yelling, "Why am I the only one folding this laundry?" "Why didn't anyone help me wash the dishes last night?" "Why was I the only one worried if the girls bathroom was clean?""It would be so much easier if it was just MY laundry I had to put away!"
Then, after I snapped at my husband a bit later when he nicely asked if I wanted a GNC Total Lean Protein Shake. (Which, by the way, is awesome. I will post the recipe at the bottom of this post). Anyway, I snapped at him and said something like, "No, thanks! It is too late for breakfast. I am starving (which made no sense why I wouldn't want to eat). Kynslee is going to be up soon (since I don't eat when she is awake?!?!)." After the words spilled from my mouth, I suddenly felt stupid. And it just kept coming. (the stupid feelings that is, not more verbal vomit) Anyway, after I spurted that out, Mike asked what I was upset about.
I snapped again, "I only put away 5 loads of laundry ... BY MYSELF. Cleaned up our bedroom and the bathroom AND AND AND ... that was it."
Mike's response, "You were doing all that? I thought you were showering and getting ready for the day. I had no idea. Why didn't you ask for help?"
All that time I spent thinking horrible things. Like he was sitting in the family room just laughing it up because I was in the bedroom by myself folding mountains of laundry. I do this to myself. I wash and wash and wash and don't put it away as it is finished. I wait until the laundry baskets are overflowing and can't hold anymore clean and folded laundry before I finally sort it all into personal laundry baskets and send them off to each room. Every week I have every intention of washing/drying a load and putting it away instantly. That NEVER lasts.
As I finished up my chores for the day, I started thinking. All these chores that I really don't enjoy doing, I go about the wrong way. I am so negative when I am doing these things. But why? I really don't have that much to do around here. Our house stays pretty clean. Dusting doesn't take long. Takes a few extra minutes to steam mop the hardwood through the house and ceramic in the bathrooms. What would I rather be doing? Working? Because a few years ago when we moved into this house, I was so thankful to finally have a place of our own again ( we lived with my in-laws for 18 mo while we got situated in a new town and built our new home), I vowed to take pride in my cleaning. I vowed to take pride in taking care of my family. Because that is the job I dreamed of when I was little. Since I was a small child playing "babies" I knew there was nothing that I wanted more in this life than to be a wife and a mother. That is what God put me on this earth to be. A mother, a wife, a friend, a laundry lady, a cook, a teacher, a nurse ( I can put on a good bandaid), and a nurturer. I am good at all of these things.
My husband says, "If you are going to take the time to do a job, you might as well be good at it and take pride in it."
That statement couldn't be more true. I am living the life that I dreamed of when I was a little girl. I never sat and daydreamed about my wedding day. I didn't want to be a doctor when I grew up. In my head, I pictured me, taking care of a family and cooking for them and cleaning for them.
Some people might say, "be careful what you wish for" (which is me some days ... like today) ... but tonight, I am thankful. Thankful that God heard me way back then and gave me everything that I wished for. But, what do I do when I see my girls dreaming of their future? I might make sure to have them add in a housekeeper to their vision! ;)
1 scoop of GNC Total Lean - Swiss Chocolate - 90 Calories
1 cup Milk - 50 Calories
1 TBSP Peanut Butter - 95 Calories
1/2 Banana - 50 Calories
2 TBSP - Davinci Gourmet Caramel Syrup - 0 calories ( i found this stuff in the coffee creamer section at walmart)
Put it in a blender for 1 minute. Then Add a cup of ice and chop it so it is a smoothie texture and drink. It is so amazing. And, I am in no way doing a promo for this product, I just have really found it helps with my calorie intake for the day and it also keeps me full!